MARCH - TW ch 22

March 22nd:

“God can use our struggle with compulsive overeating and our inappropriate view of our bodies to form and shape our character. To use another analogy, consider the underside of a tapestry where all sorts of loose threads are going every which way with no rhyme or reason. To use it looks like a big mess. However, on the topside, from God’s perspective, we discover a perfect masterpiece from the hand of the Creator. Our lives are the same. The view from below appears chaotic at times but from above, He is weaving a wondrous design that will take our breath away.” P.233

I feel frustrated with myself for letting myself slip up and stop being alert and self-controlled, resisting Satan. One observation I have made is that I overdid it on the pizza at lunch and that was the beginning of the slippery slope. I knew I was eating out at suppertime at mom & dad’s, so to correct this I really should have been more careful at lunchtime to eat a small amount so I’d be hungry for supper. I will try to remember this next time. Lord, please remind me of this!

I also feel frustrated and disgusted with myself for eating those candies in the evening. They didn’t taste that good and the thought “I want to be good and hungry for breakfast in the morning.” kept running through my head…..but I still kept going on my path and ended up feeling so yucky. To correct this next time I need to not allow myself to feel a failure after a couple bites of candy. I know I thought something along the lines of “well, I have already failed, so I am just going to stay on this path and do what I want right now!” Next time I need to stop right there and remember how disgusting I felt eating to a #8 and remember to call out to God in prayer, maybe seek some help from Jon at that point as well. Maybe he could hide the candy etc. Lord, please remind me how awful it feels to eat past #8.